It’s true when people say you’re better like when you’re thin and prettier
I lost 15 pounds and changed a lot about my appearance sophomore year and all of a sudden I was able to make more friends, attract more guys, and people wanted to be around me. I don’t know if it was the weight or maybe there was a confidence change, but people liked me better. It’s kind of sickening, isn’t it? It gives you this mentality of people will like me more and more if I lose weight. There’s a reason why the “fat kids” or the “ugly kids” get picked on - they’re just not as well liked because of their appearance. I apologize if that sounds harsh, I don’t think it should be this way.
Going to write down my dreams on here
The Paris album saved my life and is the reason for who I am today
I haven’t written a personal post in quite sometime - one that is actually longer than 3 sentences.
When I was in the 3rd or 4th grade I was waiting at my school bus stop for my papa to pick me up
when a kid from my school and two of his friends started hitting me and threw me up against the church wall and crushed food over my head
I never told anyone in my family or school about this. I was too ashamed.
You’re like the rest of us
longing for attention
you’re no different than what you claim to despise
Just cried over that “Born To Die” live acoustic version
Her voice sounds haunting and chilling.
When she sang, “You like your girls insane”
Literally started crying.
Talked to my mother about feeling down all the time today. She asked a lot of questions regarding why and how often I feel this way. I told her I feel short periods of normality and then I hit a manic low where I don’t know what to do - I feel lost, empty, alone, and I don’t want to leave my bed because I just can’t bring myself to do so - most of the time for no reason at all. I told her I’ve felt this way on and off for a couple of years now and I really just want to feel better, but I’m afraid of happy pills and I don’t want to be that boy.
I’m hoping this will help me cope with a lot of issues I have mentally.
also, my issues concerning my eating habits was brought up, but I told her I wasn’t fully comfortable divulging into that further more.
She’s offered to take me to see a doctor
I told that I’d like that very much and we’ll see where this ends up.